At the Veterans Hospital on Beacon Hill
Nurse Betty yells at my father’s roommate,
Pajama bottoms! Pajama bottoms!
Can’t go around this hospital
without pajama bottoms.My dying father talks about money.
Life without it. Life getting it.
Bane of his life not having it.
What good would it do now?
I see the writing on the wall,
is his final cliché,
pronounced under a clock
and Water Lilies by Monet.
His last sage advice:
Always cash your checks immediately.
Artie was never pretentious
but impressed by pretense.
His doctor, a Dr. Lord,
flatlines his future.
You’re going down that road.
Do you want to avoid it?
Or are you ready to go?
Artie vows to stay alive until
the Vargas vs. De La Hoya fight.
On Independence Day
he has a one-night furlough
under the pink vaulted ceiling
of his Soundview condo.
Home for a final sunbath.
A last smell of jasmine.
Did he dream of Brooklyn or the Coral Sea?
Did he dream of wife May,
dearly departed before him?
The lantsman down the hall
greets Artie on his return from liberty.
What do you have there? he asks.
Lamb chops, Art says.
But really it was pork loin.
They laid him out in a white sheet
stiff around his ivory body, a totem,
a scrimshaw Eskimo charm
with his perfect teeth set against snow
and his faint sweet death-smell.
I thought he looked free,
let off from his dying chore,
and peaceful, though he hated quiet.
At home, a tiny icon of Archangel Michael,
patron of the sick, soldiers, and policemen,
fell off the shelf when Artie died.
You, angel of insomnia,
disappeared and came back to life.
Is that you washing dishes?
Is it you watching television,
you with your secret loves?
Maybe angels don’t make love;
they just leave the world
on wings of morphine.
Maryna Ajaja began writing in 1978 when she lived in Port Townsend, Washington where literary presses
like Copper Canyon and Graywolf Press were established. Many writers visited, lectured, and taught in
this small Northwest coastal town and Ajaja soaked up that literary nourishment. She attended and
graduated from Evergreen College in Olympia, commuting along the treacherously beautiful Hood
Canal. She lived in Russia from 1991 – 1997 where she worked and studied Russian writers like Anna
Akhmatova and Osip Mandelstam. Currently Ajaja lives in Seattle, where for 21 years she has worked as
a film programmer for the Seattle International Film Festival, selecting films from Eastern Europe and
the former Commonwealth of Independent States (CIS). In her poem to her late father, Artie, she brings
his death to life and gives a both loving and amusing portrait of a father who joked until the very end.
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